So I'd love to be idyllic and say that I aways smile through adversity. Truth is sometimes I cry, get mad and my even think the worse of my situation.
I woke up on Friday excited for the weekend. It was FriYay!
Half way through the day I had the worst chest pain ever. Unbearable chest pain. It was so bad, I decided to go to the nurse. Honestly, I didn’t know what was going on. Was it heartburn or was I having a heart attack? She checked my blood pressure and it was high! Really high (according to her)! 😩
I called my doctor and they both agreed that I should go to the ER. I spent most of the day there.
The long wait, multiple EKGs and chest X-rays had me OVERWHELMED! I was frustrated, and I just wanted to go home.
At first, I was annoyed but after a few minutes I checked myself. I realized that I can’t control everything. It’s up to me to be happy and make the best of that moment.
THIS HEALTH SCARE TAUGHT ME THAT WHEN I’M FACED WITH ADVERSITY, ALL I CAN DO IS LIVE MY BEST LIFE!
Here’s how I did it:
LABEL YOUR EXPERIENCES
Ask yourself two questions:
1. Is this important or
2. Is this just traumatic?
Seriously, pick one. Put your unfavorable experiences in one of those two “boxes”.
If it’s fleeting - and traumatic, lean in to it and move on.
If it’s important, create a plan of action and work towards it.
DON'T STRESS OVER THINGS THAT YOU CANNOT CONTROL!
Label your unfavorable experiences and move on.
RELEASE YOUR ATTENTION
While waiting for a bed and my EKG results, all kinds of thoughts ran through my head. I thought about all of the things that I didn’t do and the people that I should have called.
#truthmoment for a quick second I wondered if I was dying.
I’m writing this so clearly I didn’t die. Lol.
A patient care representative must have noticed how anxious I was as and started chatting with me. He suggested that I listen to music or even play a game on my phone. Initially I gave him the side eye, then I reluctantly started listening to music. He was right. After a few minutes I started feeling a sense of relief.
It’s easy to get overwhelmed with everyone’s opinions - whether good or bad. Sometimes too many voices can become overwhelming. As I was listening to music, I had my phone in my hand and was naturally inclined to open every email, Facebook & Instagram alert. After a few minutes of reading and scrolling I started to get anxious again. As faith would have it, my phone died. Lol. With no power bank or charger in sight, I was left with my own thoughts.
I prayed and hummed a hymn and thought about all things positive.
Sometimes opinions and external stimulation needs to be limited. It’s ok to unplug from your phone and social interaction. You are human. You have the right to protect your mental space.
I found that I was able to live in that moment and make the best of what I had. In that moment, what I had was me and bae, plus I was still alive.
They ran the tests and decided that I wan’t having a heart attack. Once my blood pressure went down and I was stable, they were quick to kick me out and tell me to follow up with my primary care physician (they discharged me, lol). Thank God!
THIS HEALTH SCARE CAUSED ME TO MAKE A PERSONAL COMMITMENT TO ALWAYS LIVE MY BEST LIFE.
NO NEED TO CRY OVER THINGS THAT ARE NOT IN MY CONTROL. ALL I HAVE IS THIS MOMENT.
i am Resilient.
i am Tenacious.
i am Courageous.
i am Vibrating high.
I’M STILL HERE . . . SO I’M LIVING MY BEST LIFE + WINNING!